For someone who tends to lose a lot of herself(melting boundaries), or rather pick a lot of load from people and places(high empathy); I kept telling myself –

“who I am”

and while I answered it, in context of my situations, achievements and relationships; there is a huge fear of exploration and a painfully burning need to discover.

The work of a lot of prayer and Practice, gave me this vacuum like layer between me and my external world. This brought a lot of peace.
It made people think me unaffecting, selfish often.
The peace was warm and it rippled into people around me. Oh but believe me when i say that in months the same people were curious and respectful of it.

However, I made a mistake, I left a lot of space for my shadow self to take over my being, to maneuver fear in royal robes of niceties and battle between grace and power.
And it is this war that brings me back to Relationships, situations and places; and realising that it is a tougher process learning more about myself through them.

Each relationship is a Mirror.

To know one-self truly, and to neutralise the battleground of the consciousness; is a constant interaction and interpretation with the experience of being this social being.
Your feelings, Your beliefs, Your Thoughts and Actions are in response to the world around you and to study yourself in isolation is a simple fallacy of Ease of ignorance.

Not only does it support you to dive deeper and alchemise your shadow for a better life, it frees you from inaction, makes you braver and gives you the ability to relentlessly grow

Keep Shiva in your mana and Vishnu in your manasa.